Losing The Internet and Phone.

It's just turned 12am here in NZ and it's now the 17/11/13.  Later today my internet and phone are probably going to be cut off as I haven't paid the bill for about 3 months and it's $250 in debt.

I got a automated phone call from them saying that if I didn't pay the bill they would cut me off in two days, that was two days ago.

It's very sad.  My mum's going to go banana's.  I've had the phone and internet on for about 8 years now under my own name and have always managed to pay the bill.

O well just another casualty.  I should be well off and set-up for life because of the Twin Towers.  If I could get a copy of the phone call I made where I yelled war and made the whole phone call about how there was going to be a war in prophecy 2 days before the attacks on nationwide talkback radio then I would soon be a millionaire.  But alas the Govt censors the call from general public release.  If I could put the call on You Tube it would make me very wealthy and famous as well.

I need a lawyer.

So yep don't know when my internet will be back on.  This is sad and all the Governments fault.  I should be rich :(

All is lost.

Leeda
Darcy Lee

I Wonder Why.....

I wonder why god won't heal amputees.  Christians and Jesus persons always claim that people are being healed by them and their prayers all the the time. Like they pray for people to get better from cancers or whatever disease and if they get better it's  a miracle.

Yet not one persons legs or arms ever grow back.  Amputees are never healed.

If there were miracles everyone would know.  If even one leg or arm grew back it would make massive news.  But alas my belief in Jesus comes to an end.  I need to see peoples arms and legs growing back to believe in Jesus.

I have had fun reading the bible.  I like to pretend i'm good and wholesome.  There are some epic sayings and teachings in the bible but most simply won't hold ground.  If the bible hinges on Jesus then it kinda fails. You can't grow limbs back by prayer in Jesus.  Not yet probably never.  It's been 2000 years nearly since his death.  You think someone would of figured it out by now if there was anything there.

Medicine is fast progressing and possibly soon will be able to provide immortality under it's own steam. Most people turn to Jesus when they are in trouble and facing a crisis or extreme trouble.  I guess I would like to say that Jesus can't help you.  If your in pain or facing mental health issues or whatever be the problem Jesus can't help you.

You have to do it on your own.  It will be you who suffers.  It will be you who carries the burden.  Jesus won't save you.  But saying this I still believe in immortality.  So even though you die you will yet live.  I'm pretty sure technology will become advanced enough to resurrect people from death no matter what time or age they lived.  It will be for everyone.

The future looks bright but the present is dim.  We must endure and have faith.  Sometimes there just can't be better days.  Jesus can't grow limbs back.  But I say give it 50 or 100 years or so and then it shouldn't be a problem.  People are working today to solve problems that we as a world currently face.

They are doing this in secret.  We don't know about alot of the things that are going on.  I'm basically a cheer leader sitting in the background hoping and praying that things will come to pass that make us shine and bring life to decay and death.  There will be sadness on the way.  God can't help this.  But remember the future.

I foresee that  any problem we face today will eventually become no problem at all.  I'm looking forward to a paradise.  I'm hoping to live another 30 years minimum that would make me 65 years old.  I believe I will truly see some amazing things in this time.  If I can live 30 years I might see life extension tech, extending my life until eventually I can live forever and be immortal.  Failing this I believe in resurrection.

If there was a God I would love the justice.  Nobody could be more fair than God.  You know if your punished by God then it's fair no matter what your feeling.  But alas there is no God.  Prayers and Jesus don't grow back lost limbs.  Soon people will be praising the tech which grows them back.  If it's a race then Jesus is not doing very well.  Humans are managing under their own steam.

I'm incredibly dumb.  It just took me a while to learn it.  The whole time I thought I was smart.  Are you like this.  What path are you walking  in life.  If you have an education your probably smarter than me.  But even an education can lead you to error.

I've made some dumb choices in my life and are paying the price.  You should yourself try and not think so smart of yourself.  At least until death is defeated.  There's a lot of pain out there that could be experienced by people so be careful.  I don't think pain is good for anything.  It's a negative.  Everything about it is bad so therefore it must be defeated.  And this will happen.

I look forward to the day that pain and death are reversed and defeated forever.  There will probably always be evil people unless we develop a super intelligence of some kind, this may help.

Anyway this is long enough.  Jesus doesn't grow back limbs so I don't believe in him.  His suffering was epic but he got the church for it and has changed the face of the world.  Others who have suffered just as much as Jesus go unnoticed.  Jesus hasn't been very kind to me and I kind of feel deceived by him.  He promises much but delivers nothing.  Not even love.  Jesus could be a kind of liar.  What else is there to say about Jesus.  I wish some hero would save me from poverty, persecution and illness.  But nope.  Jesus never comes.  Even money wouldn't save me and really what else is there.

I don't believe in Jesus anymore.  Maybe when he grows back an arm, leg or actually does something about all the evil people in the world then i'll believe.  At the moment evil owns everyone.  Sorry for disowning you Jesus.

Leeda
Darcy Lee

All Along The Watchtower Jimi Hendrix.

All Along The Watchtower - Jimi Hendrix.

I'm not totally sure if i'm going to listen to this much more but I like the intro and the line "All Along The Watchtower".  It reminds me of being on a watchtower and looking out for danger, least the word watchtower does.  I'm going to add this to the label amazing guitar as well as I find it unique enough and whatever else.  

So we is all on the lookout for danger to warn others.  I feel that because through my suffering I have something to say.  I don't really have anything to say but I should I guess.  I hope it will come to me. Matthew 10:19 At that time you will be given what to say.  I have suffered extremely and nobody knew.  So i'm telling you now.  There is extreme supreme suffering out there to be had.  Life hasn't yet swallowed up these things.  Some of you may be called to suffer in life like I was.  It's not pleasant.  I hope there is a purpose to it.  Surely it must make sense some how.

In suffering all is lost.  Suffering is the absence of joy.  I hope not to suffer any more.  1 Peter 4:1 because whoever suffers in the body is done with sin.  I hope that from my suffering I have learned not to sin as Christians call it.  I hope my suffering has perfected something or some power in me.  What is the purpose of suffering?  Nobody knows.  Suffering could be bad and therefore is an enemy.

Christ suffered.  If Jesus Christ didn't have miracle powers then we at least know that he suffered.  What is it about suffering?  I aim to live above and abolish all suffering in an age that accepts it as the norm.  Such is suffering that it needs to be finished and gone forever as soon as possible.  I believe that the level of suffering some have experienced already will somehow be enough to defeat suffering forever.  Something permanent has to be done.  Right now.  Not in a 1000 years but now.

Revelation 21:4 There will be no more death' or mourning or crying or pain.  So according to this scripture there will one day be no more pain.  I like the thought of this and it rings true to me that this will be the case and truth one day.  There will be no more pain.  Pain because of it's nature will be abolished and no more. Nobody likes pain.  If you like it it's not pain.  I cast my lot and my vote that all pain should be outlawed and abolished to the deepest darkest chains there are.  With the end of pain comes immortality.  There is nothing to fear in being rid of pain and suffering.  2 Corinthians 5:4 What is mortal may be swallowed up by life.  I think this means life will shine so bright that it will get rid of every bit of wrong and evil.

I could only wish God was real so that his bible would come to pass.  We at the moment live in the dark. At least I do.  God seems along way off from reality.  I have to believe there is enough power to war on suffering.  To defeat it.  I have a right, law and grace not to suffer anymore.  Suffering is wrong and it's here to be defeated and triumphed over.  No more suffering.  I have said enough for now.  War on suffering until immortality.  Let life shine brightest.

Anyway i'll leave you with Jimi Mr Hendrix.

Take Me To Your Leeda.

I posted the text below on about 5 different forums.  On one forum,  Bibleforums.org, I got my account banned (Lol), on another forum, AboveTopSecret.com, the post got deleted.  On ChristianForums.com, Bodybuilding.com and Longecity.org the post still exists but the thread has died a horrible death. Longecity.org has 71 views and is still near the top of the forum but it doesn't see much action really.

Anyway here is the post:

Post anything you want to say to "The Powers That Be" here in this thread and I guarantee you if they like it, it will go to the top. This means posting in this thread gets you in front of President Obama and his aides. Or even higher people that exist outside the Pres in total shadowness. I guarantee that if it's important or somehow something they and these people will read it.

Can you make them laugh with some of your wit? Maybe you can? What are you going to say. Do you have words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict. You have been delivered before Kings and Governors and Presidents. 

Believe and so speak.

Leeda.

I use the nickname Leeda when it's available.  Anyway here is the one reply that I got from christianforums.com from the user Gottservant:

We should believe we are heard.

We should believe we are heard when we pray too.

But prayer is more important.

That was his post.  None of the other replies on the other forums are worth mentioning.  I suppose if you posted a comment on this webpage and it was important then it would probably go up to the top through my handlers so by all means leave a comment if you dare it could be seen by the President, no really it could.  

One day if I ever become famous i'll start my own forum, it will only work if i'm famous because that will be the only way to get members.  I'll pay money and everything to set up a forum and run ads so that it eventually pays for itself.

Leeda.

Please Bleed - Ben Harper.

Ben Harper and the Innocents - Please Bleed.

I wasn't going to add this cause I didn't listen to it very much and I found it what you could say triggering a memory over and over that was annoying.  So anyway I have forgotten the memory and now enjoy the song and have added it to the music collection which now totals 113 videos added.

Timbaland Morning After Dark.

Timbaland - Morning After Dark.  Found the hook quite catchy for this song so been listening to it.

Bruce Springsteen I'm On Fire.

Bruce Springsteen, The Boss - I'm On Fire.  Probably going to listen to this a little bit more.  It's had a few plays so far.

DC Talk Jesus Freak.

DC Talk - Jesus Freak.  Listened to this a few times.



DC Talk - In The Light.  Found this after listening to the above.  Also have heard it on the radio.  Adding it cause I like.

Lorde Royals.

Lorde - Royals.  Decided i'm going to add this.  Wasn't going to.  Didn't appeal to me at first.  Now it's ok. Listened to it a few times anyhow.

Lorde Tennis Court.

Lorde - Tennis Court.  Not sure if I like the song Lorde Royals but this song above gave me a bit of a thrill. Lorde is only 16 and from New Zealand and just hit number 1 in the US with Royals.

Ylvis What Does The Fox Say.

Ylvis - The Fox - What Does The Fox Say.  I think I like this song.  It's got a lot of views since it was first uploaded about a month ago from this posts date.  73200000 million views to be round about exact.

Shows you the power of the internet.  TV would never be able to do that.  Some amateur can get lucky and become a star overnight just by uploading from there bedroom.  This is very good indeed.  But it's no secret anymore.  People are trying anything to get famous.  Myself i've tried but failed.  Nobody listens to me even though I actually have a story.  Nobody believes me.  This is a sad evil world, I believe the world is evil with very few but powerless good people who are weak and vulnerable to death and injury.

 1 Corinthians 15:26 The last enemy to be destroyed is death.

This couldn't happen soon enough.  One day there will be no pain no sorrow no tears no death.  Pretty sure on this.  Enough of a rant that doesn't have much to do with this song.

Johnny Cash Hurt.

Johnny Cash - Hurt.  Listened to this over a couple of days.  It's a cover of a Nine Inch Nails song.  I probably like this better than the original.  Don't think I would listen to the original much.

Phone Call On YouTube. Fascist Nations

Fascist Nations.  Phone Call On YouTube.

YouTube Domain Name.

I got a reply back from Youtube regarding the domain I was going to claim.  They said:

Hi there,

Thank you for submitting your complaint. The account in question has been permanently closed, which means that it cannot be reclaimed. Please follow the below link to find other available usernames:
http://www.youtube.com/create_account

And that's it.  So I can't get www.youtube.com/darcylee damn.  Maybe I will be able to grab it when I become famous if that ever happens.  

You can try and claim your youtube.com/domain here.  This is if someone is using it and it's inactive and it's your trademark or copyright.  

World of Warcraft Mists of Pandaria.

Today in my email I got 7 days free time to play World of Warcraft.  My account had not yet been upgraded to Mists of Pandaria which is the latest expansion and today I found in my account 70 dollars which was Diablo 3 ah earnings.  I was going to put on my telecom phone bill but decided I would buy Mists of Pandaria.  I was expecting to pay $65 at Dick Smith but they had sold out of copies.  I next tried Noel Leeming.

Noel Leeming didn't have any copies either but I did see the Sony Muteki sound system and was impressed by it's size.  The pictures I had seen in brochures didn't really do it justice they made it look tiny.  It was actually quite big and looked and sounded quite nice.  Think it was about $1600 hundred.  If I had the money it would probably be the system I would buy.  I even liked the size of the subs.  Honestly I thought the system was tiny.  Anyway.

So I went to the Warehouse as a last resort.  I not only found Mists but they had taken it down from $78.90 to just $19.98.  Bargain.  I snatched it real fast.  So now I have 7 days to level my character to 90 from 85. I still have $50 bucks to put on the phone bill yay.

Here's a photo.

LOVE.

Love on Fire.

I posted the below post on about 3 different Forums across the net.  On one forum overnight I only got 2 replies and now the topic has died on all forums.  Here is the post I said I would be posting stuff that I posted on forums so here it is.  I also made a second post which was quite long as well.  O well you don't have to read all this.  I have added pictures so it looks nicers.


Express yourself here.  So what have you got on love. What can you pass on or teach to another about love? It's a tough topic. Seems not anybody knows about Love. Maybe you know about LOVE.

Are we just pretending? What are your questions and answers?

There is Love God, Love Neighbour, Love Enemy.

Do we dare love ourselves? (how do you read it).

What are the essential elements for LVOe. Does Love extinguish. Then was it love?

Poor Love. What are you going to do and say to/about it?

I'm sorry for setting such a tone. For the tone I know not what to set. For love. Hmmm, For LOVE is it real?

Got any science on love. I suppose you can post that here.

What is the extent of the power of LOVE.

What are your theories on LOVE. What are your realities about LOVE.

Do you have any LOVE to Share? Can you prove it?

I'm not feeling the LOVE.

Can LOVE grow back someones arm or leg?

What is the limit of LOVE. Whay is LUFF so limited currently.

Drop Some Love. If you got any. I'm sure there's plenty of people ready to eat.

Show US the LOVE.

We is Needy.

This is not sext. Cause ewww. Perv. Go somewhere else.

So in your opinion Love is building upto something big. Got any opinions at all?

1 Corinthians 13:8

This is my light. Shining. Is Love Boring? If i'm bored am I not loving? What if i'm tired. What if i'm in pain.

Um so what is your definition of LOVE. Consider this post. It may or may not contain LOVE. Are you offended? In what way?

Writing this with all my might... Well I figure the world needs more love.

How do you figure in LOVE VS PAIN? Who is the winner?

What can you honestly tell me about love? What is your experience?

Can Love heal? Love is the word.

Enlighten me. Cause I don't have the whole picture on love. Maybe a small peace.

One person sharpens another ya know. Maybe you could make good reading and cause action through your love?

I only have weak human love to offer.

I give my life so I can claim it back again.

Affear much.

Tell me what you want?

Do you practice LOVE?

Fine i've lost the subject.

Love.

Write something about LOVE here.

This has been my effort. Try an inspire without hurting yourself.

Does LOVE fail? So was it then LOVE?

What is the truth about LOVE?

What is going to be your stance on this topic and towards me?

If this thread dies is that LOVE?

Anyhow.

Post on LOVE Here. Others need it. They need to know. There is huge interest.


Thanks

Leeda.


That was the end of my first post.  Over the first night I got two replies.  The first post said "All you need is love" and had the beatles songs of the same name embedded.

The second post was by a user named DaphneApollo this is her post:

Love is the time you give someone and the little gestures and actions you do for them when you can't exactly say " I love you ". Love is just being there for someone who's in pain, lonely, helping bring happiness to their day and in turn they mirror happiness back to you.

Love swells someone's heart who just before they met you, thought no one cared. Love is kind, giving, sharing and caring about someone/thing other than yourself. Give a little every day to someone and watch the transformation, it in itself is a miracle, a beautiful flower blooming slowly in front of you that you've carefully tended with water and nutrients that now thanks you with a beautiful smile, it's bloom. Once you've shown these kindnesses to someone, they never, ever forget you. They begin to love in turn and understand that someone truly cares for them where before hopelessness may have been.

This little light you have inside, let it shine on others, and watch the miracle that develops before your very eyes. Nurture someone today, give LOVE AWAY.


That's it.  So after the first night and 2 replies I wrote this:


Rather pitiful turnout for LOVE. It's much to hard I think. Nobody has belief any more.

I don't LOVE. Not that much anyway. If there is ever love then you could pretty much do anything. Love does not exist right. Because God does not exist and God is Love.

If love entered this thread everyone would know it. Love is obvious. So nope no Love in this thread. Unless it's secret. It could be secret Love. But not with just 2 replies to the op. There's no secret love going on here.

Can I imitate your love? I don't have any or many examples to go by. So if I imitate Jesus I end up crucified and in alot of pain? This sounds like my life and I didn't ask for it. Alas there's tonnes of poor people in the world who need help.

Someone show some love please. And we can all imitate it.

To hard? You could change the world from your position right here on this forum.

Whos attention are you trying to capture? With your love surely we could do great things? Or are you like me and have no love? You right now have the attention of powerful people through this forum. You can affect them. Alter them. Have them copy and imitate you.

Perhaps your looking for someone to imitate? I rage alot myself so that's not a good thing. But I am being persecuted. Not that anyone would believe. Your welcome to imitate me as I try and provoke someone to love. I mean provoke. Violent Love perhaps.

No ones willing to love for more than a few seconds if at all. 2 Posts is pathetic.

If more people posted about love then maybe things could happen.

Basically we don't know anything about love. We don't know how to start it. But we know it when it there.

Is this any comfort to you. Am I being any comfort to you? Perhaps i'm the devil appearing as an angel of light. Love fails till Love wins. When there's no love your lost and in failment. Then oneday maybe well be old o baby and maybe love will appear for final victory. Love takes it's time and is slow.

I still see no love. I still feel no love. Love is losing. There is hope of course. But that's under a stress of pain and disbelief that nothing will ever happen.

What's your story.

Does anyone anywhere have any examples of love.

How do you practice love? Where do I begin? I'm lookin to love. See I think this love stuff is all made up.

I always thought love would be hugely powerful. What weapons does love provide? How do you fight using Love. What is the martial art called that uses love? Christianity the martial art?

No really how do you fight with love? Your love has no power here.

Do we really have souls? The bible says to prove all things (1 thes 5:21). Now how do you prove to me about love. If someone strikes you in on the cheek why do we hate back.

If someone possesses your body and mind how do you love them? There is no reason to.

How do we love our enemies? What practice should we take?

Why is it so hard to love. I can't even overcome simple evil with good. I'm evil myself and repay evil with evil leading to more of my suffering and I still don't learn. Rage Rage.

Jesus Christ seems to be failing the world. Limbs can't be grown back by his believers or brain damage can't be healed. Even a broken bone takes 6 weeks of healing. Maybe it's not Jesus who failed but his followers.

Why can't people copy and imitate the miracles of Jesus Christ. They would bring me such joy. See maybe they never happened. I don't believe the proof that i've seen so far. For 2000 years God has had a chance to educate and teach people about things. Right things. The right way to live. But no one has been taught. Everyone has had to do things and learn things by themselves.

The bible doesn't solve pain. We are waiting for a time when there is no pain.

Abandon Christ.

How long till love prevails. In the mean time your probably not being tortured so there's no urgency about life or matters as such. Your on vacation.

God so loved the world that he gave his only son that whosoever believe on him shall not perish but have eternal life.

I have not seen one believer ever. Not even myself. Not no one. No one is good.

So great. Machines shall lead the way of love. Our language and communication will be linked to machines. This is unless god saves us first which is highly unlikely.

I've typed enough. What is Love if God is love. What is human love.

Lay your life down for mine. A stranger.

Bring The Love.

Leeda



That was my latest reply the very next night like 24 hours later.  I got a further two replies this is the reply from Arpgme:

Nobody can make you "feel the love". They can only inspire it but it is only felt from within.

If someone came here saying "I love everyone", you still may not be "Feeling The Love".


The next reply was a little weird but was this from Backcase:

I quoted you from this thread, in a recent thread of mine.


He was quoting Arpgme the post above but I don't know which thread he quoted him in.

All of this was on the forum AboveTopSecret.com

So yep that's all people had to say about LOVE. Not much really.  What do you have to say about the topic?

Thanks for reading.

Darcy Lee