MineCraft, But No Really Suffering and Torture.

Never really played minecraft that much. Didn't see the point in moving blocks around and the version I had was real hard. Once you died u died. This city is impressive enough to add to my website though. Found this on my facebook page. 4.5 million hand placed blocks.

If only we could devote such time and dedication to building housing and feeding people in real life.

Some of the things people do for attention on Youtube cost a lot of money and consume a lot of time. Money would be better spent helping the homeless and feeding people. I want to see more of an effort alleviating peoples misery and suffering and pain. I can't really talk myself. I mean what am I doing over and above what others are doing.  Nothing at all.  I play World of Warcraft all day and night and waste my life away.

I have suffered terribly so know what it's like. It would be awesome to alleviate peoples suffering. But how.  What can I do. I ask these questions but don't have any answers. I guess first I really need to secure myself? Perhaps. But i'm fairly stable. I have the same bills each week.

I find I fall away from such ideas all to easy.

Like the saying "The Truth Will Set You Free". I reckon I need to do some soul searching and find some place to stand. I need to find the truth that will set people free. Thing is many people have come before me. They were much smarter. It's my suffering experience that wants me to help alleviate others suffering. But i'm not smart enough.

Although I have suffered I am not motivated at all to help others. Perhaps it helps to be kind. But this doesn't help another. Some people are unreachable perhaps violent.

The Matrix tech could possibly help with communication and could provide strength and healing. But that tech being revealed is far out of my hands though I once grasped such power if only for a few days.

So what can I do to help? If I were to give the orders they would be incorrect. If I were to follow orders I would fail. The issues of the world need stronger smarter people than me.

One problem is the smart people don't understand suffering. These people live in a paradise and suffering is so far removed from them that there isn't enough urgency. If suffering could be explained better and people could understand it better then perhaps such people would be more willing to help a sufferer and less willing to inflict suffering.

So much money is spent on weapons of death. If this money was to be converted to life instead we would be better off. Anyway again I have fallen away from helping the poor and suffering. I don't know how to help. I'm no longer suffering so it doesn't concern me maybe. But no. People are all to willing to inflict suffering, it even brings them pleasure to see others suffer.

It is truly an evil world we live in. Evil currently reigns. It's hard to see it ever ending.

God has failed. This has been going on for millions of years. I guess tech has to catch up. So if we don't wipe ourselves out then there are still going to be losers. Hopefully there will be justice and everyone can agree that it is justice.  Even the punished.

I don't see any justice at the moment. Evil has free reign. Evil is able to inflict torture on other humans. I am tortured by the American Govt. No one believes me. They have the power to read your minds. No one believes. I want to be free but I am not. I haven't done anything wrong.

I said America Sucks a few times. They torture me for this. Because I first spoke in unique arrangement some of the lyrics that now appear in many famous songs by many famous artists and said America Sucks a few times right before they were going to tell the world they torture me. This is not right. But you won't believe me.

Everyone gets away with so much because of unbelief.

I am tortured by the Govt. This is my only problem in life apart from poverty. But the Govt denies what I speak and you don't believe. You don't think them able of such things. The matrix tech is used to torture me every day and night. I have no rest from it. When will you come to my aid.

When will you stand up for me.

If it happens to me it happens to others. These people are murderous.

They torture for fun and pleasure and revenge no other reason.

I am innocent. They brought this upon themselves by their own choices.

They chose to watch instead of help. They left me to suffer. They drugged me. Because I didn't like the songs and said America Sucks they chose and tortured me.

This is the worst modern type of torture you can imagine. Please help.

Only those who believe my words can help me. Now I know no one believes. No one bothers to help me. No one comes. No one does what it right. No one listens. Everyone is right except what I say. No one takes any notice of what I say. I am just delusional to you. Yet I don't lie. Yet I am not delusional. Yet I am not Schizophrenic. The Govt calls me Skitz and drugs me. They do this all the mean time torturing me with mind control tech.  I have suffered so much.

No one believes me.

No one has experienced my suffering. Right now my left ear rings louder than any tinnitus could possibly make.  It's so loud. They are torturing me for writing this. They subvert all my thoughts. They limit them so they fit inside their computers memory. I'm not allowed good thoughts. They say the opposite to everything good.

But you don't believe me. You believe their words and appearances. You believe what they have made me with their machines. They have made me deaf and retarded. Tech has done this. Not my lifestyle. They use people's unbelief so that I am a nutcase skitzophrenic and you and your thoughts are safe you believe.

Why do you let them torture me? It's your unbelief that lets them do it.

You have failed as friends and good people. There is no one good. Not one person believes my testimony. I don't hold any weight other than I am a crazy in your eyes.


Darcy Lee
26.10.2014